In a funk

What do you do when you’re in a funk?

No, seriously. I don’t have the answers to this. Or if I do, my mind doesn’t want to listen.

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It’s so easy to give advice, but why is it so hard to take our own? Why is it that we know what’s best, but we can’t give the respect to treat ourselves better?

I understand some aspects of depression. I’ve been through it. So I know this isn’t the same, but my mind feels clouded. I have been out of touch with myself and the universe lately. How is it possible to understand how to be happy and still be in a funk?

Perhaps that is the way of the universe. Ups and downs. Highs and lows. Beginnings and ends.

Maybe working a lot will do that to you. Not giving yourself the time and space you need to create an environment of peace and love. Stressing out over nothing. I can see where possible funk starters are coming from, but how am I not able to stop them?

I haven’t been blogging. I haven’t been studying for the GRE. I have taken a hiatus on looking for grad programs. What gives? All these things I have wanted to do, I have let slip past my consciousness, working day in and day out hoping that I get enough sleep to carry out the rest of the week. Why do we do this to ourselves when it’s not aligned with our true desires?

Why do I have so many questions without answers!??

I have started to attempt to eat healthier. I haven’t been for a run yet, but I tried some yoga today. I continue to practice gratitude. I struggle with routine and discipline, so hopefully I can continue my streak. I love not being in school for the time being, but I have lost any sort of schedule and structure I had.

Maybe the universe will tell me what’s up soon enough. I have been struggling with finding answers for a while now. How was this so easy a few months ago, but now I can’t think straight?

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